Have you ever been awaken by the sound of someone crying and realized it was you? Well, that was my experience this morning and it took me completely by surprise. I asked God what was happening and He wasted no time in responding. He began to tell me HIS thoughts and then asked why mine and His were not the same concerning me. I wasn't quite understanding because I know I have been following orders when it comes to anything He has commissioned me to do. Then He said, "Not business. Not ministry. But, YOU. Why do you think less of yourself than I do?" What? If you know me, you know that I love myself. Maybe too much, at times, but I love me...lol! So, I couldn't wrap my mind around what God was trying to show me. So, I just kept quiet and listened. Then God proceeded to explain, "You love you, but you don't VALUE you. You accommodate, compromise, and make unnecessary adjustments for everyone else except YOU! Why do you place a lesser value on your time and resources when it pertains to yourself? You secretly abuse you and cry to me to make it better. Your tears move My heart, but not My hands. It hurts Me to see how you underappreciate you because you STILL do not believe you deserve better. Yes, I know what you desire and hope for, but I have not done it, because you don't think you deserve it. Why would I give you something if you're going to wonder why I'm giving it to you? Sometimes a Father likes to give his children gifts, Just because. You have been faithful and it pleases Me. But there should be another level of faith with this amount of faithfulness." By this time, I'm so lost in what He was saying that I couldn't string two thoughts together to reply. I'm a giver and I like making someone's day a little brighter. "But what about your days being brighter, Daughter? Why do you keep your palms down after you give? I'm waiting for them to be up and open to receive what I have been trying to give you for a long time. This is not a selfish act I'm telling you to perform. Feel your hands. Feel the calluses from the work you have put in. Yes, I know how many there are because I count them everyday. I want to smooth those rough spots with what I have in store just for you. You deserve this and so much more. What did you expect?"
That was it! The conversation ended as quickly and dramatically as it began. So, there I sat, in tears with my thoughts and His words. The only logical thing I could think of was to go back to my life Scripture and meditate some more, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the lORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." (Jeremiah 29:11, KJV). And now I wait in expectation.
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Vicky Holland
5/2/2018 10:00:12 am
Karen how that touched my heart and He is so right. You are valuable, a lesson i too have too realize. Thank you so much for sharing.
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Vicky Holland
5/2/2018 01:59:42 pm
I love you too Sis. ❤
Unise
1/11/2019 08:24:47 pm
Thank you for sharing. I neededto read this at this moment and time. God Bless.
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LaKeisha Richards
3/24/2020 09:03:59 am
Oh how this spoke volumes to me and encouraged me all at the same time it actually felt like HE was speaking to me personally thank you ☺️ for sharing this with me it really touched my ❤️🙏
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